| I refuse to plead in you court. I know I certainly won’t receive any justice. I am here because I did rebel and that’s the only reason.
I refuse to take part in helping the ruling caste perpetuate the illusion of justice.
Who pays the judges?
Who decides what the law will be?
For whom is it enforced?
You own the courts, you are the judges. That is why I defy your court, that is why I urge anyone who has any dealings with this force to defy it also.
Keep your shares, keep your houses, I don’t need them now, for I’m a dirty commo, Mother, and I renounce it all.
I believe in Marxism-Leninism
The dictatorship of the proletariat
To serve the working people
And promote the cause of peace.
Save me Thomas…
Who…am…I?
Who……am……I?
I am sally banner
I am sally banner
I’m morbid, introspective, violent, immature, dangerous, macabre and lesbian.
I frightened people, they couldn’t bear my individuality.
But I intrigued them, with their dirty little mouths after me. The girls would gasp as I would not bow.
I would not bow.
I was a major poet.
‘I will live in Ringsend with a red headed whore
Where the fan light gone in where it lights the hall door’.
I brought Michael wutheing he didn’t know Cathy but he knew me. My parents destroyed us. He was a weak bastard. Couldn’t handle their prying eyes. He couldn’t ignore the gossiping tongues.
The dark fires shall burn in many rooms
Will you sometimes miss me with my tangled hair?
Still girls in dark uniforms
Crouching in winter with their cold hands trembling,
Still echoing as our voices echoed
And the faded, frumped-up form of a mistress
Teaching French
Does she remember us or do we pass
Only like dreams of dark figures,
Some with different hair and deep voices
Or merely countless hats hanging on pegs,
Countless columns of moving, massed black legs.
Our minds are sprawled on unforbidden lawns,
Our voices lie like queer leaves in the clipped grass,
As we have behaved, so we shall pass
Michael left. He ran. People tended to do that. I scared them. Threatened them.
Mother called the psychologist, after David was too weak to stay.
She thought I was a poseur. The doctor thought it was a phase.
I was better than Edith Sitwell
I was greater than Sarah Bernhardt
My baby’s dead, Thomas. I’ve killed my baby. (Holding out my arms) Forgive me. I couldn’t help it. I wanted some kind of immortality. I wanted to go back to the golden age. Primitive, savage, beautiful. I wanted to be free.
I wanted immortality and ended up with nothing.
I rode forward through that blackened land. I found the forests burning and the fields wasted waiting for rain. Upon a slope I saw a glimpse of light and then I came to the chapel perilous. | comments: Leave a comment   |
| | Time: | 01:27 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/ford/sydnicons/Nerdy.gif) contemplative |
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| Taosim
"refers to a power which envelops, surrounds and flows through all things, living and non-living. The Tao regulates natural processes and nourishes balance in the Universe. It embodies the harmony of opposites (i.e. there would be no love without hate, no light without dark, no male without female.)"
The founder of Taoism is believed by many to be Lao-Tse (604-531 BCE), a contemporary of Confucius. (Alternate spellings: Lao Tze, Lao Tsu, Lao Tzu, Laozi, Laotze, etc.). He was searching for a way that would avoid the constant feudal warfare and other conflicts that disrupted society during his lifetime. The result was his book: Tao-te-Ching (a.k.a. Daodejing). Others believe that he is a mythical character.
Taoism started as a combination of psychology and philosophy but evolved into a religious faith in 440 CE when it was adopted as a state religion. At that time Lao-Tse became popularly venerated as a deity. Taoism, along with Buddhism and Confucianism, became one of the three great religions of China.
The Tao surrounds everyone and therefore everyone must listen to find enlightenment."
In contrast with the beliefs and practices of the priesthood, most of the laity have "believed that spirits pervaded nature...The gods in heaven acted like and were treated like the officials in the world of men; worshipping the gods was a kind of rehearsal of attitudes toward secular authorities. On the other hand, the demons and ghosts of hell acted like and were treated like the bullies, outlaws, and threatening strangers in the real world; they were bribed by the people and were ritually arrested by the martial forces of the spirit officials."
Time is cyclical, not linear as in Western thinking.
Taoists generally have an interest in promoting health and vitality.
Five main organs and orifices of the body correspond to the five parts of the sky: water, fire, wood, metal and earth.
Each person must nurture the Ch'i (air, breath) that has been given to them.
Development of virtue is one's chief task. The Three Jewels to be sought are compassion, moderation and humility.
Taoists follow the art of "wu wei," which is to let nature take its course. For example, one should allow a river to flow towards the sea unimpeded; do not erect a dam which would interfere with its natural flow.
One should plan in advance and consider carefully each action before making it.
A Taoists is kind to other individuals, largely because such an action tends to be reciprocated.
Taoists believe that "people are compassionate by nature...left to their own devices [they] will show this compassion without expecting a reward."
Exams Finsihed | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 06:17 pm | | Current Mood: | nerdy |
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| ONE EXAM DOWN.....SIX TO GO
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| Dont you hate Fuckers who stalk you...
one guy just abused the shit out of me cause i didnt like him...and i didnt talk to him ?????? so i told him to fuck off...then i he said "why dont you like me, im sorry i love you, i wish i didnt feel emotions, its all my fault"
What are you suposed to say to that???? i am pissed that he makes me feel guilty....why should i.....i cant feel sympathetic towards him cause i am too angry...but what if a say something horrible...and something happens...???????? | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Take the quiz: "WHAT RELIGION BESTS SUITS YOU?"
Atheist
You are Godless! You could care less about religion. As far as you're concerned, if you can't see, touch and kick something, it's not real to you. You're day-to-day activities consist of eating, working, sleeping and the occasional Internet or coffee shop debate. Lastly, if anyone chooses to preach at you otherwise, you will either leave or debate them until they finally shut up. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 03:59 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/ford/sydnicons/Surprised.gif) anxious |
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| i hate parties....never, ever, never, ever going to one ever again.
you do things you regret but you didnt know u did and then your friends get angry at you....
Passion pop is bad, Fitzy was right...although it didnt get me preggers or near to i wasnt at that much of a loss of my inhabitions but still many regrets...many many many.
Sarah, dont me mad...i was drunk. You know i just wanted to forget everything and have a good time! Can you at least tell what i have done....? | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | modest mouse..float on.... | | Time: | 02:40 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/ford/sydnicons/Sad.gif) lonely |
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| i havent updated for ages and ages and ages cause i havent really been living at home. Mum and Dad have offically split up !
we are even looking at houses in town. But the reason i cant update is cause Nan doesnt have a computer.
Its a couple of weeks till my Bday...Nan said she would buy me a laptop computer :) yay
im lonely...all the girls at school r in this anti bullying thing butcause i was away from school on the day they did it i am all alone :( ALONE I TELLS YA.
Sarah i like modest mouse :) Can i borrow the CD :) hoorah | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 05:08 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/ford/sydnicons/Sydney0.gif) indifferent |
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| ya copied 4 CDs so far.....
*Vandetta Red
*Punkorama
*Distillers
and a perfect circle
3 to go..........yay....
im stuck.....my essays suck....i have period pain...i want to cry..hoorah...
I might be getting a puppy...:)Any name suggestions???
Also mum and dad are splitting up....(in other news)
were staying at nans till we can find a place.... | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | fitzys voice going on and on about the balfour declaration. | | Subject: | canteen NAZI | | Time: | 01:19 pm | | Current Mood: | scared |
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| ahhhhh Brett is sitting right behind me...he scares the fuck out of me.......He asked why i jumped everytime he went near me....i said i had a twitch.
Ella just said my essay was good:)....and fitzy is chatting up zoe....lucky bitch.
cat just rubbed her eye...ha ha ha rubbing of the eye.....rub your eye cat rub it good...
i am hungry...too hungry.....cause the canteen nazi wouldnt let me buy anything..."the bells going in 5 minutes the canteens closed get to class..ra ra ra".
the ugly hag.....................................
'His Majesty's Government view with favour the establishment in Palestine of a national home for the Jewish people, and will use their best endeavours to facilitate the achievement of this object, it being clearly understood that nothing shall be done which may prejudice the civil and religious rights of existing non-Jewish communities in Palestine or the rights and political status enjoyed by Jews in any other country.' | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Hendrix---Purple haze | | Subject: | capitalism sucks | | Time: | 02:40 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/ford/sydnicons/Energetic.gif) artistic |
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| my brother lent me his sociology text book from uni and i was going through it last night and i was totally overwhelmed by some of the stuff in it.
'capital is a coercive relation which compels the working class to do more than the narrow round that its life-wants perscribed. As a producer of the activity of others, as the pumper out of the surplus labour and exploiter of labour power, it surpasses in energy, disragard of bounds, recklessness and efficiancy, all earlier systems of production based on direct compulsory labour, in its energy and its quality of unbounded and ruthless actuvity'. -Karl Marx-
the competition for the capital 'compels him to keep extending his capital, so as to preserve it, and he can only extend it by means of progressive accumulation'.
Have our bodies become machines for the repoduction of a capitalist society?
If a worker is told to work faster by his boss who is paying him $15 dollars a day, and this worker produces $50 dollars of produce each day, isnt the worker paying his boss $35 dollars a day to be told to work faster?
communism capitalism aboriginallity assimilation feminism sexism homosexuality homophobia rascism heterosexuality sexuality identity equality class religion atheism inequality culture multiculturalism immigration glabalisation ethnicity veganism labour liberal democrat greenie
DOES OUR SOCIETY RIENFORCE CERTAIN KINDS OF PRIVELIDGE OVER SOME GROUPS???
'Have the courage to use your own reason'-Immanual Kant- | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | california by the phantom planet...well 1/2 of it anyway. | | Time: | 01:28 pm | | Current Mood: | unsure |
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| Yay finally found the Rasmus CD...the ass cost me 30 dollars... 30 FRICKEN DOLLARS...
but it was worth it.
Also downloading california by the phantom planet...theme song to the OC. it rocks
Debating whether to go to Ellas party or not....not many people r going i have heard. i might call sarah and decide what to do. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | jeff buckley...mood swing whisky | | Subject: | Jeff | | Time: | 04:51 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/ford/sydnicons/Enthralled.gif) enthralled |
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| Holidays!!!!!!!
2 essays to do: creation of Israel and photgraphy
art assessment
learn lines to the chapel perilous
this is me sally banner:)
i thought if i tore you out of me id be deformed in some way. id need plastic surgury . so after you left i lay down anywhere for practically anyone who asked me. i wanted to destroy myself, because i didnt exist anymore. not A whole, loving, complete human being.
i used to think a man of genius could be excused for many things. i know now that a man of genius can be excused for less than any ordinary man.
Aman who believes in nothing is an easy dupe for fascist ideology. i hid my head in the poetic sands till the world events forced me to pull it out again.
Hush my baby do not cry
the mushroom cloud is in the sky;
Now i lay you down to die,
lulla lulla lullaby
Hush my baby do not cry
A mothers tears are never dry;
If you should die before i wake,
i pray the lord your soul to take
but who will heal my bitter ache
lulla lulla lullaby.
Rocking on two sticks
or down on all fours
to meet hell;
Here i am
Bare faced
armoured in bone
back to the lonely place;
Where i began
Anythings possible
now that i am alone
anything at all
now heaven is impossible;
and all's well
Goodbye Sally Banner | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | gyroscope...doctor doctor | | Subject: | yay i am a warrior | | Time: | 01:36 pm | | Current Mood: | amused |
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|  | My sphere is Ronin (Look for great Ambition and Success), and my class is Champion (Self-Righteous and Confident). I am a Vigilante. When it comes to action, you stand alone. You may possess great valor and self-righteousness, Vigilante, but chances are, you may be torn between looking out for your beliefs, and looking out for yourself. A real anti-hero. Try not to step on anyone's toes, and in time you'll find those who will be your admirers. What kind of Warrior are you? | | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | the Rasmus...in the shadows | | Time: | 12:41 pm |
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| I LOVE THE RASMUS.....
Lauri rocks....
Remember, everytime a man masterbates God kills a kitten....thats saying rocks...
(thanks Zoe) | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | The cat empire...the chariot | | Subject: | Just a Mistake??? | | Time: | 04:59 pm | | Current Mood: | pensive |
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| The front is fading, my hopes are wading.
Pollock, saviour of my life. i wonder what he would think if he knew he changed my life.
"He is a rarety among men". not really. a womaniser? YES. A drunk? YES. but still i want to paint jackson Pollock. It is driving me mad.
One day i believe i will decide to die. Like veronika (thancks Cat) its not a bad thing. Not any time soon. What a marvelous day for me. My grand finale. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 07:50 pm | | Current Mood: | bitter |
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| my name is no longer Rose...its Betty i have decided.
Some very bad bad news.....my baby cousin died the other day...a cot death :( he was only 4 months old it was his funeral yesterday mum, dad and geoff went no way was i going...i cry over home and away most nights how would i stand that???
my auntie sonia wrote such a touching...it was about how now the family had their little angle watching over them...(i know kinda cheesy) but it makes tears come to my eyes. its heart breaking...a tiny baby. He was so young, he had never done anything wrong when cunts like those hilton sisters can wear those gucci shoes and go to their film premiers and scream when the thread count on their sheets is 1 less than their one at their 6 mill mansion...bitter yeah...i am kinda.
im not in a bad mood at all i am just bitter.
Another thing that has gotten me down in my puppy dog dying. Tessy she was very very old though, and she was sick the kindest thing we couldve doen was to put her down years ago but we could'nt. dad had to though the other day.
Mum says things like that comes in 3's i fricken hope not..... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 09:17 pm | | Current Mood: | devastated |
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| Nathan.....i am so sorry....
i thought it was a joke....sarah told me....you know on the movies when they say theres been an accident and the people just say good one...crappy joke....it happens
i thought she was joking i dont know why....
my mind and fingers are too numb to write....
i didnt even know his family...i knew him only through school...but i loved him nonetheless...i feel horrible...for him...for his family...for cat....for every one who knew him....how do people believe in god when these things happen to people who are so...undeserving of these things....
with everything i have to give, get well Nathan...the world isn't safe without THRUSTBOY..... | | comments: 11 comments or Leave a comment |
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